I have also discovered that I seem to have a problem acknowledging the magnitude of my accomplishments. I seem to think that having a camcorder set up to record my seminar, the first recorded seminar in department history, is a bigger deal than:
- making my first poster
- presenting said poster at my first grant-funded conference
- winning a department award for said poster
- presenting my department seminar in my fourth semester
- passing the PhD qualifying exam at the end of my fourth semester, before finishing my master's degree (apparently this is not normal)
- finishing my master's degree in two years with enough research to possibly make two papers,
I think I'm starting to understand that, but the transition from a lifetime of minimizing accomplishments either to fit in or to avoid becoming an egotistical asshole is slow. I'm still worried about the latter, so I hope someone will tell me if I start down that path.